It's been awhile!

I know i've dropped off the radar a bit recently and haven't blogged. It's been a busy time and I've really been trying to concentrate my energies on other things.

I've started my counselling and am getting to grips with my issues. Actually - in many ways I think i'd already done that. It was just being able to say it out loud and deal with it. I now feel a lot lighter - but also empty. i feel like i'm missing something and I just can't put my finger on what it is. I'm doing well (so my counsellor says) and I'm making slow progress. Some days I feel really good - other days I feel really bad. But you can't just get over something after 26 years of carrying it silently around can you?!!

I've rejoined St John Ambulance and am really enjoying it so far. I've volunteered to do the ambulance training and am finally looking forward to driving an emergency vehicle with lights and sirens!! Woo hoo!! I've also volunteered to join the local Search & rescue team - as I wanted to do that when I was in the police. In fact I could do with not working as there's so much to do!!

I've finally got around to going out on my new mountain bike. I managed a mile before my bum hurt and my legs burned!! still - it's a start!!

That's all for now folks - hopefully more to come soon!